Hello, Hi, Remember ME?
Let’s put the apologies for aside for a minute. I’m going to keep things as real as possible. Last year was tough, actuallly the last few years have been hard but 2016 was particularly testing. I struggled most within myself and I found it near impossible to be coherent with anything I did - running MouldyFruit was definitely one of them. Let me break it down, when you work a 9-5 you’re forced into a routine and even on those days you’re not feeling particularly good you’ve still got to show up because you’ve got to get paid right? and that’s just the way the cookie crumbles. When you run your own shit it doesn’t quite work that way, waking up and finding motivation becomes increasingly difficult so you spend a lot of time procrastinating and self doubting. That’s pretty much what I did, I constantly compared myself to others - in work, in life and in relationships - trust me when I say it’s soul destroying. It's an unhealthy way to live life but the reality is - we live in a digital, social media driven era where images of perfection and success surround us on a daily basis - let's face it, it's hard to ignore.
That being said this year will be 8 years since I first started MouldyFruit, can you believe that? I started it off as a hobby, a little corner on the worldwide web where I’d write, sharing my love on all sorts - TBH it was a distraction to finding a graduate job. MouldyFruit eventually transitioned into a job I never dreamed of having, I loved it (and still do) but in all honesty I’ve never stopped struggling with running it - Securing paid work, waiting for cheques and not knowing where your next job is coming from isn’t an easy way to live life. Now I sit here 8 years later not quite sure where I’m going with MouldyFruit. I feel like some of you have seen me grow, evolve and change during this time. I know I talk about beauty and it doesn’t get much deeper than that but many of you can see beneath the surface and yes I’ve been through a lot since starting this blog all those years ago.
I love my readers/viewers many of you are like friends who I know by username, you guys have constantly support me and encouraged me - You don’t know this but it’s little things like a positive comment or compliment that has got me through some of my darkest days. MouldyFruit has been my safe haven, my personal space and something I’ve grown to be really proud of. I may not have millions of followers, I may not be making ridiculous amounts of money but I've still made a little something out of nothing. I have had some of the most incredible experiences and met some wonderful people along the way, not to mention the amount of make up I’ve got to play with as perks of the job - Any girls dream, I'd say!
So what am I saying? In a nutshell I’m not going anywhere! I can’t guarantee I’m going to upload daily or stick to a certain amount of posts per week because making those kind of statements just set me up for failure. If anything I want to take my blog back to it’s core, I want to get re-aquatined with you lot, I want you to know what products I’m loving, I want to talk health, my journey to well being and generally just share more with you all as and when I feel like I can. I am hoping to make content you guys love and content that I’m proud to share.
2017 has started off really well for me, I’m in a good place and while I anticipate spending more time in Dubai this year (hey pudding!) I hope to keep up with you guys on the usual social media platforms. I guess this is my belated Happy New Year to you all, I hope you all have a fabulous year filled with good health, memorable moments and happiness. I also want to be the one to tell you guys not to give up, if you’re going through a rough patch just know it WILL pass - It may take days, weeks, months and in my case years but things will slowly get better. That I promise you. Please know you’re not alone and I want to send you all, my love.
Here’s to more from MouldyFruit in 2017..