What's been going on with me?
Hey remember me? Well I don't really know how to start this post and I've been meaning to sit down and write it for a while now, if you follow me on Twitter/Instagram then you may already be aware of what has been going on in my life lately if not then here it is!
In my last post I was sat in sunny Dubai starting the beginning of my two week holiday. From that blog post onwards things just went downhill for me and my whole trip turned out to be more of a nightmare than the dreamy break I had hoped for. I was severely bitten by what seemed to be insect/mosquitos, now I usually always get bitten and I deal with it but this was like nothing I had experienced before. The bites progressed from my arms, all over my body, my back, my neck, my face and it just got worse and worse. I was in so much pain and my whole body begun to swell, day after day my conditioned worsened to the point where I had to go to the hospital. I was injected numerous times to try and calm down the skin irritation, I was in so much pain and discomfort and didn't really know what was going on. I spent a later four days in and out of hospitals seeing doctors and specialists trying to determine the problem but there seemed to be no simple explanation. I was put on strong medication, antibiotics and steroids - I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't eating, I was majorly distressed. On the day I was meant to fly back home I was on such high dosage of medication that I begun hallucinating and I started having panic attacks, it was one of the scariest moments of my life (without sounding overly dramatic!) I couldn't breathe but luckily my friend Vidal was about because he managed to calm me down. As a result of my difficulty with breathing I was unable to fly home. When I eventually did get home (Last Monday now!) my luggage got lost which caused me to have another panic attack which again didn't help the situation. I got back to London and went to A&E again no one was able to give me any answers and my skin was continuing to flare up and move the bites were moving around my body. By this point I was convinced that there was something that had poisoned my blood - So I had the tests etc. Since last week I have been consistently taking my medication, covering my skin in steroid cream and sleeping at almost every occasion. I am so unbelievably exhausted which is something I am not used to, even writing this post I'm fighting against my heavy eyelids. As a result of the medication, I am feeling pretty crap - My body is scarred all over with these mysterious marks which now look like a series of bruises, my hair is falling out, I'm constantly crying and generally couldn't feel further from myself.
The reason I wanted to write this post is to let you guys know what's been going on, I had a lot of pre written posts ready to go up prior to Dubai and I will slowly be getting them out to you guys, but over the next few weeks I am going to be a little quieter on the Blogging/YouTube front - at least until my energy levels get back to normal. I wanted to also thank many of you for your messages through social media, I'm not well right now but I'm seeing slow progress on a daily basis. I still have no idea what caused this reaction which then seem to have a spiralling affect on my health and I am awaiting results of various blood tests, so hopefully this week will come with some answers.
I have so many blog posts and videos waiting to be edited and uploaded I almost feel a sense of guilt for not being able to deliver but right now my health is priority. I hope you guys can understand, I miss the interaction with you guys but I'm hoping in the next few weeks things will get better, I am just trying to take each day as it comes.
Again, THANK YOU for all your constant support.
So much love..